Midnight saviour
I am a student. Sometimes unhappy about the way the world is run. But can't do anything about it cause the world is created as unequal.
His favourite quote, " Hero of the Gods, Love of the mortals, Rebel of the underworld "
" El héroe de los Dios, el Amor de los mortales, el Rebelde del hampa "
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
[9:13 PM]
having weird dreams again,especially about being late yesterdayy..argh...it was a funn y dream though coz at e end of e dream, i was wondering whetherin, i was taking mc for sch or for ns...kinda weird...anyways,todae quite a slacky n tired day for me...same old story, reporting to brani for orientation and then listeng to MALO tok, another officer tokk...informative at times but my mind was drifting off to somewhere i wanna b.haha.lunchtime came earlier than i expected and before i knew it, i had like 2 hrs lunchbrk outside brani.ate at seah im and went walkin around in vivo..window shopped wif my frens and found out that some items are sellin cheaper than before..of course for a limited time only...jus looked around, wanna buy bt no money sia...so in e end,went back brani empty handed...haha.n saw doreen halfway on e bridge...haha.workin sia...i also working wad...bt only 2dae orientation nia...sweet...tot we were goin 2 slack bt i was wrong....aft lunch was like goin 2 e boat to know more about the technology i will b touchin soon...cool hah?nahh...nt if u r gg do it for a month...haha.dunno wad more to sae coz i m realli v tired...gonna b online for a little while more before its knockoff for mi.cya
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Sunday, July 15, 2007
[5:50 PM]
hmm...todae is sunday..nth special happened though yesterday happened quite a no of things...well,yesterday's a day where i kinda had mixed feelings, a feeling of happiness and sadness and it all boils dwn to certain people...sometimes,little things that one has done for another always gone unnoticed and when the person actually questioned the startin, all u gt to say is i didnt even started...even if one feels that it is an reasonable answer,it seems the contrary...i was given the ans of i didnt know u started.......yea...nt gonna sae the rest.of course, inorder to avoid some idiotic embarrassment, i said sth which the particular person would hav tot i wasn't tryin and oh well, it wasn't necessary to waste time...i am basically one hu dunno hw 2 use words in affairs of e heart...lots of times,i said things i didnt mean to coz the meaning interpreted by others is always different....well, if i didnt try to *** u,i wouldn't have blasted my smses tryin to get u to go out, i wouldn't have tried going out wif u at e slightest opportunity and stayin up late until u sleep...it seems rather idiotic 4 mi...smsin u in camp, bein happy when u reply back and of course hoping that u actually come for my POP...idiotic of mi....askin u out is almost 100% failure coz of ur projects deadlines n u will be tired n all that.i still tried but guess it wasn't meant to be...i dun blame u bt i m starting to become a bit mentally tired...my training,my efforts when all added into one day, i feel lethargic,tired and dunno wad 2 do...i tried to drift bt cant find e reason y and in e end,it all ended in ur mouth, the words u said...well,after that i felt nothing coz it all ended.mayb i will be happier but the happiness i felt aft that was all short term...korean food wif my best fren,basketball till 12am were both the things that distracted mi from this *********. feeling tired, i slept and of course strange things do happen...i dreamt of you...why you??i dunno and maybe its time for me just to pen this dwn n forget that this yr, i tried bt ended up sayin i didnt n gettin a dead end
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Saturday, October 07, 2006
[10:56 AM]
hahaha.yesterdae was mid-attumn festival.was v sian, so went to countryside c the party there.hmm...it was crowded but not much fun there, so in e end, my fren n i just went back to bullion and walk 2 rounds aroud the whole estate, watching people play with candles and laterns before i went to play soccer coz i saw issac.haha.play soccer a while afterwhich, fin wei quan sitting at tower 6 with 3 gals. so fortunate rite:p.hahhaa.anyways, when i went back there, more people were there liao, joel,marcus n karen(i dunno hu's she but i gt a tinny clue coz marcus mentioned bt her b4),hahha then eva,fiona and her other sis(dunno name.oops) were playg candles with wei quan while wei quan ate his mooncake. then we found out people were watching us playing with candles and the person is an adult. we kinda joked that the adult saw us having fun with candles and wished she could be playing too:p.hhaa. we r kinda bored there.played until about 1040pm, after which only left,eva,fiona,their sis,marcus,wei quan,joel,desmond(self-proclaimed ah beng),his fren,marcus n i.haha.we just sat at the shop and chatted.the gals were quiet.n wei quan super quiet.hahhaa.coz he's enjoying his time.hahhaha.we still had 2 caandles burning on the can i drank from, the the guard came over and sae,'it's already 11pm,no more candles'.hahhaa.then marcus who was sitting at the opp side of the table tried to blow it out.haha.in e end,eva blew it out.we chatted till the gals went home and i ran home.super tired and unproductive.well.got to return to mugging.haha.still promised joey to play candles wif her.haha.u pay for the candles hor:p.just joking.hahahha
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Thursday, August 31, 2006
[10:46 PM]
Girl: Slow down, I'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No it's not. Please it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine I love you. Slow down
!Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
Girl : *hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off and put it onyourself? It's bugging me.
Girl: Alright, now slow down
Guy: I love you babe
Girl: I love you too, please just slow down now!Please...
(in the paper the next day):A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only 1 had survived.The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then he had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.
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Sunday, August 27, 2006
[8:34 PM]
When you were 9 years old,
she paid forpiano lessons.
You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.
When you were 10 years old
she drove you all day,
from soccer to football to one birthday party after another.
You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old,
she took you and your friends to the movies.
You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.
When you were 12 years old, she warned you not to watch certain TV shows.
You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.
When you were 13,
she suggested a haircut that was becoming.
You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.
When you were 14, she paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.
When you were 15, she came home fromwork,looking for a hug.
You thanked her by having yourbedroom door locked.
When you were 16, she taught you how to drive her car.
You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.
When you were 17, she was expecting an important call.
You thanked her by being on thephone all night.
When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation.
You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.
When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition,
drove you to campus and carried your bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm
so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.
When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding,
and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you.
You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.
When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.
You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.
And then, one day, she quietly died.
And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART..
This is actually to tell all of you out there to appreciate your mom.whatever she does, it's actually gd for you. however, it lso applies to other people, people whom you have hurt. You may have unspoken words you wanted to say.There's still time now. Unless you want to wait for the time he/she dies and regret the decision, start telling the person those unspoken words in your heart.
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[12:10 PM]
7th grade
I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair,and wished she was mine. But she didnt notice me like that, I knew it. After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. Iwanna tell her, I want her to know that I don`t wanna Be just friends, I love her but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why...
11th Grade
The phone rang. on the other end it was her.She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, a drew barrymore movie, & 3 bags of chips,she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me,said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. Iwanna tell her, I want her to know that I don`t wanna be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and i don't know why.
Senior Year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "Mydate is sick" she said; he`s not gonna go. well I didnt have a date and in 7th qrade we made a promise that if neither of us had dates we would gotogether just as "best friends". So we did.
Prom night
After everything was over I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her, She smiled at me I want her to be mine, but she doesn`t think of me like that and I know it. Then she said "I Had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on thecheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don`t want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I dont know why
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body loated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didnt notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said,you`re my best friend, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the Cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that don`t wanna be just friends, I love her but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why
A Few Years Later
now I sit in the pews of the church. that girl is getting married now. I watched her say "i do" and drive off to her new I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me n said you came!" She said. "thanks!" and kissed me on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to know that i don't wanna be just friends, I love her but I`m just too shy, and i don`t know why
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". at the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn`t notice me like that, and I know it. i wanna tell him, i want him to know that I don`t wanna be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don`t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me...I wish I did too. I thought to myself, and I cried.
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[11:49 AM]
for a moment,
i thought i forgotten
all about you
but within two nights of sleeping,
i dreamt of you twice
in the dream,
i never saw you clearly
my vision was a blur
i didnt know why
and couldn't figure out why
silently,
i accepted the fact
that one day
you may never see me again.
i hope
with my deepest heart
that as a friend
i wish you
gd luck
great day
for the many years to come
a year is onli 365.25 days
n a month is on average 30 days
a week of 7 days,
a day of 24 hours
an hour of 60 mins
a min of 60s.
when all these add up, its approx
31557600s
thats all i want to say to wish you
happy wandering.
memories are hard to let go,
fate is hard to accept.
but when it's gone,
only the truth will be left to stand
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